Wednesday, September 19, 2001

Yah! I got my first issue of LinguaFranca today (again, printed on actual paper. I'm sooo retro.). The cover story is a great read (I'm gratified already by the subscription). It overviews the research of Ellen Dissanayake who believes there may be a human / biological need for art, beauty, and creativity.

Sheesh - I just took a look at my archives - what a mess. I suppose I need to tidy up a bit around the place.
I took a half-hearted look at redesigning dither the other night to make it more "html-ey" and less "image-ey" but I realized, I'm still pretty fond of this ID. It's like, you know, me.

Tuesday, September 18, 2001

I read that in today's New York Times (the actual newsprint version, I'm so proud of myself) that Jerry Falwell apologized for the spiteful finger-pointing display he put on for the Pat Robertson's 700-Club audience out there in TeeVee Land last Thursday.
I apologize that, during a week when everyone appropriately dropped all labels and no one was seen as liberal or conservative, Democrat or Republican, religious or secular, I singled out for blame certain groups of Americans," Mr. Falwell said in the statement. He said his remarks were "insensitive, uncalled for at the time and unnecessary.
Article can also be seen on NYTimes.com
This shallow apology is of course, nothing more than an attempt to manage his public image. Yes his comments were inappropriate (read, wacked) but you know he still believes what he said is true.
I stand by my earlier post. I believe the man is an extremist.
Ironically, most of America has little tolerance for those types these days.

Sunday, September 16, 2001

The Washinton Blade reports Jerry Falwell's own version of extremism. (Richard mentioned Falwell's commentary to me in passing this morning - I must thank Sparky for the link).

Did you know that the Bush administration gave the Taliban 43 million dollars? Unbelievable.

Wednesday, September 12, 2001

paper, souls
from great height
blown away

Sunday, September 09, 2001

This is very personal - a dream that was so vivid and lucid that I can't imagine forgetting any aspect of it. I just want to record this episode which struck me so deeply and has stayed with me for over four days now...
I dreamed I was an undergraduate again, walking around my old college town in the wee hours of the morning - the small town was quiet, daylight was soon to break. Near campus was an old rooming house which I imagined I had occupied rooms the semester before but lived there no longer.
I approached the house and noticed that the door was ajar - and a cat was sitting on the threshold looking at me. Seeing me approach, it rose off its haunches and turned into my old rooms. I followed it inside, knowing that surely someone else lived inside now, that I was entering while the rest of the house was asleep, with only this strange feline invitation to justify my being there.
And so I stood in my former front room looking toward the open door to the bedroom. The cat scuttled through the open doorway to the bedroom. I followed it quietly - knowing the new inhabitant surely was sleeping just inside. This felt conscioulsy dangerous to me but I entered regardless, with a careful stillness.
I stood away from the bed in the edgy shadows of the dim room, near the window. I saw someone sleeping there completely covered with a patchwork quilt.
I was thrilled, terrified and very aware that I had crossed a line of criminal voyeurism. I had no justifiable reason for being in this unknown person's room. I decided to exit as quietly as I had entered. The cat was weaving around my legs - I bent to pick it up and carry it out with me when there was an explosion of sound in the corner of room beside the bed.
My God - it was the sleeper’s alarm clock sounding with a racket. I backed toward the far wall as I watched a lithe boy approximately my own age leap from the bed to quickly switch off the alarm and pull on some jogging pants lying nearby. Then he saw me standing there.
But he didn't just see me - he saw into me, for lack of a better description. Our eyes were locked together and were frozen there in each other’s gaze. It was like looking into the eyes of a lover - yet there was this unspoken history that neither of us knew each other "in real life." We had never met before, never seen each other before.
I was lost in those pale blue eyes peeking out from beneath a tousled shock of dishwater blonde hair.
He spoke to me - though not breaking our eye contact for a moment. He had no suspicion or hint of anger in his eyes, or his voice when he spoke.
After what seemed an eternity he asked me simply, "What are you doing here?" and finally broke our gaze when he saw the cat in my arms.
He knelt down onto the bed, onto the crumpled quilt. I let the cat jump from my arms and I sank onto the nearest corner of the bed - and our eyes locked onto each other's again.
You might think this dream is taking a certain turn - I can say that there was a strong degree of electricity between us. But that was not the point - we both knew that.
What was important in this encounter, was that we knew each other's mind. I knew without knowing that this boy had no guile in his body and was completely earnest and kind in every way and that I was welcome in his life despite our unorthodox circumstances of our meeting.
There was so much more to this dream - however what drives me to record it here, or anywhere for that matter, was the intensity of this immediate bond, the flooding of love and acceptance from this boy. I want to hang on to that feeling forever - keep him close to me as if he real friend who will be always with me.
epilogue: The more I think about this dream episode, the more I feel like this boy is a real person. I'm not trying to be mystical here, it's just the memory of his face, his body, return to me unbidden instances for several days. This is not the way dreams normally affect me. I don't know him. I haven't met him. I can't put a name to him. But whenever I get these images, I get this creeping sense of near-recognition. Like a word that's on the tip of your tongue but no matter how hard you try, can't get out.
I have my own little mystery, it seems.

Saturday, September 08, 2001

16 days till I'm 30. Eep.

Friday, September 07, 2001

Man - this is a nifty little (but growing) little search engine - WiseNut.
Search for something then click [Sneak-a-Peek] and a live screen of you website is displayed inline. Pretty swift - thanks Jeremy.

Thursday, September 06, 2001

"It's a very good thing" -- Martha Stewart
Seriously, I am so in love with this remote control from Sony that I broke two year silence on epinions to write a sterling (or at least brushed aluminum) review.
This thing delivers what it promises and more - for less than 60 bucks.

I just knew it coffee is good for you. Now I'm just waiting for the study that reveals that smoking cigarettes makes for strong bones and better night vision.

Tuesday, September 04, 2001

I just gotta say it - I'm not a fan of 'splash pages' but this one should win a prize. The Institute of Official Cheer
